Glad to see people around me getting hitched or attached. I am really happy for them, my smile is probably as wide as great wall of China. Yet, I am sitting in this empty living room all by myself. Trying my best to get into the mood and start my assignments that are piling up. But instead of starting on my papers i guess i need to get rid of some thoughts and here i am blogging and typing furiously over the keyboard. 

I bet there are a lot of people who don't even understand what am i typing. There might also be a handful of people trying their best to not vomit while reading this post that is filled with million of grammatical errors. 

Just received all my assignments grades and i'm totally flunking the assignments which is a freaking bad thing. I totally have no idea what is my brain doing. It seems like there is a hole there and things that i've learnt is leaking out from that hole. Nothing is going in. I bet my team members are all snickering behind my back thinking how lousy i am. Not that i want to look down on myself but that is the truth. I am simply a couch potato. A lazy ass who loves to go out then staying at home to complete the assignment earlier. 

Never felt so pissed with myself for quite some time already. I just hope I will loosen down after i complete this post. I have been shutting down from everyone recently. As much as i want to be back to my original self, i can't. Things weren't the same anymore. Recently realize i haven't been hanging out with my girlfriends and peeps, instead i spent time alone. Walking in the mall alone, sipping coffee in starbucks alone, lunching alone, busing alone. I don't even whatsapp daily nowadays. 

I need myself back.

Give me strength

Bring me to light.