Initially wanted to post some photos of what's happening recently in my life. But after some thoughts I think it will be better to pin down my feelings.
I felt pretty hurt today when my mom commented that my brother is way better than me in all aspect. That triggers my tear gland at the same time it triggered my thoughts. I paused whatever I was doing and got a little rebellion. Throwing my assignments aside, doing all sort of nonsenses. Watching video and shows. But when I got the time to pack my bag for tomorrow class, I realizes if I continue like this. I will probably be as what she have describe. As much as I hated it, I really want to excel and let them know the fucking thing they done wrong was to judge me.
Anger have taken over my emotions. Everyone are judging me recently. How can I break through ? What can I do to break through. I hate this feeling. I just fucking hates it. I want my simple life back. But I know this ain't gonna happen cause its the process of growing up. What I am pissed with is that they want me to grow up yet restricting me at all times.

Urgh, fuck this shit.